mark of the beast

where are you christmas

today is our Lord Jesus Christ birthday, as they say.Though the bible doesn't really said the exact date of when Jesus was born. For me it doens't really matter. The important things is we we celebrate the day He was born.

Right now I'm drinking this Kosher wine that was given to me by me friend. I didn't know it got alcohol in it. The last bottle she gave me was just like a juice. Right now i cannot see good and i got double vision. I'll be sleeping in a minute.

anyho, the whole world celebrate Christmas and everybody is so happy about it. Though most of the people who celebrate christmas doesn't really know the real meaning of christmas. We have christmas party and we give gifts but that's all what we feel with christmas. We thought it's about holiday, giving gifts, having party, but we forgot that it's really about Jesus. We think of other things and even forgot to tell Him happy birthday.hmmmmm i think we should put back Christ in chirstmas because that's what it's all about.

hrrrr now I'm getting dizzy. sooooo sleepy but i need to finish this. Just have to look closer at my keyboard. I'm always running three PC at a time and very good at what keyboard to use in a certain Pc but now i don't know what keyboard to use.

i liked to talked about the video. I loved it so much. everytime i play it, it's like thousands of needle are piercing through me. and a big one through my heart. i guess it's because i'm lonely. being alone is not easy. i wished i had somebody with me celebrating christmas. though i'm used of being alone, i think once in a while the true me really comes out. what i felt and what's deep inside of me. but i trust the Lord that in due time, He will give me the desire of my heart....and that to marry the girl of my dream. maybe now is not the time but i know it will come.....

where are you christmas

nine words women use

It's already 5pm and i'm still here wide awake past my sleeping time. i work the graveyard shift so 10am i should be in bed already. But here i am still awake so i decided to open my laptop and checked on what's going on with the market. dow jones industrial average was down 190 points i think. i forgot the exact number. but i don't worry about what's going on with the market right now. A lot of people are panicking and don't know what to do with their retirement funds. For me I'm not retiring in the next couple of years so i hate to say this but the correction in the market is an advantage for us who has a decade or two before we retire. funds are so cheap right now that you can buy more funds with the money you are contributing with your 401-k.

so much for that, i really don't fell like discussing the market. what i would to put in my entry right the e-mail that was printed by somebody and brought it to work the other night.

nine words women use
1. Fine: this is the women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

2. Five minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

3.Nothing : This is the clam before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Argument that begins with nothing usually ends in fine.

4.Go ahead : This is a dare, not permission. Don't do it.

5. LOud sigh : This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (refer back to #3 fot the meaning of nothing)

6. That's ok : This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's ok means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7. Thanks : A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you're welcome. (i want to add a clause here- This is true, unless she says "thanks a lot"- that is pure sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. Do not says you're welcome..that will bring on a "whatever"

8. Whatever : Is a woman's way of saying &%#$ you

9. Don't worry about it, i got it : Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing herself. This will later result in a man asking "what's wrong?". for the woman's response refer to #3.

ocean floor

leaving 99

the battle belongs to the Lord

I wasn't feeling good this past week. It seems alot of negative thoughts coming to my mind. I know the devil is trying to steal my joy. He uses people that surround me to make me upset. It's like every morning at the end of the shift, this morning staff are just getting on my nerve. They come with a lazy attitude and seems doesn't want to do anything. They would expect me to do everything for them. They have this nasty attitude who would think of nothing else but themselves. The other would come in the morning and would say"i want this, i want that, i want 7 people in my unit." I mean it's just common sense that the other unit can barely get 4 and she would demand 7.

Almost everyday somethings coming up. Different kind upsetting things and I'd been trying not to lose my joy. I'm used to an impulsive person with things like this. I don't want somebody taking to me in such a manner that i don't like. If you don't respect me, I'm not going to respect you. You yelled at me, I'll make that everybody will hear that I'm yelling at you too. I remember, one of the nurse in the morning shift pulled me to the med room because me and this cena was yelling at each other. She told me to be a "bigger man". I calm down but i still wrote the cena for insubordination.

Yesterday was one of the days. The enemy send another person to destroy my peace. This time it was the Physician Assistant of one of our Doctor. She got big head and she think she's mighty. She is rude and as if she's making a fool out of me. I want to answer her back in a nasty way. I want to tell her how stupid she was from telling about a certain protocol that i know where she got it from. I want to yell and tell her not to the blame on me and stop making some kind of protocol out of nowhere just to get away with it.

But I bow down, took a deep breath and gave her the answer with respect. I didn't gave in to the flesh. I didn't gave in to the devil that was trying to tell me to do it. I prayed and ask the Lord to give me strenght. Not to give in to the temptation. I don't Him that the battle is His. I stayed in faith. When i went home i prayed for them. I asked the Lord to give them peace and help them with there problem.

Before I enter that facility the next night, I prayed to God to guide me and send the devil away that's trying to destroy our peace. When i went in, i learned that the Physician assistant had some kind of trouble with one of the patient. I waited till morning and ended the Lord answered my prayer. Twas a peaceful night and a peaceful morning and i thank God for that. He fights the battle for me.

no weapon!!!

for a while that i haven't written anything on my blog. I remember that i'm getting bored writting on it on my last entry so i just post some pictures on it. i always think that nobody reads it anyway and besides I am not really somebody with a talent to write something that would attract somebody. I always laugh about my english since english is my second language. during my high school and college years i remember that i only get a passing grade.

anyway, why i'm writting now is not because i want somebody to read it and to get credit out of it but these will serve as my journal so that few years from now i could look at it refresh me memory in all the things that happened to me as i walk with God. few months ago i really would like to come back here and write something but everytime i open it something was pushing me not too.

so much for that, the title that i put here is "no weapon" which is an expression that Tonye is always saying. though we both believe it but it means alot for her. no weapon is a short word for "no weapon can form against you if you believe in God." i think that what it means for. I'm not 100% sure but that's the idea.

Last night i brought and show her this item that i thought would be one that would interest me and her. I haven't really checked it out because i never had time yesterday as i slept for about 12 hours straight. i told her that i just would like to show it to her and i would check it out in the morning. She told me that it's quite interesting and she told me to duplicate it. I told her that i already tried it but couldn't.

When i arrived at home i checked it out right away and indeed it was fasciniting, heart warning and an A+ as i always says. I do believe that this would help other people once they check it out. Probably not all but for some. I prayed to God to show me how i could let the others see it. Since i could not duplicate it, i though God told me to buy one or a few and let others check it out. Anyway i'm doing this not for myself but to help others to realize how wonderful God is. I think i put God in a box thinking that i would buy one and pass it around. I was sitting in my comfy chair i thought to myself that the devil could not form a weapon to stop me from sharing that piece of information to others. If i have to do it the hard way then i will. i was saying it over and over when i said to myself to try it for the last time. I was stunned and pinned to my chair for a few minutes. Eyes wide and may jaw dropped as i saw that piece of information being copied. I said to myself"there's really no weapon can form against me as long as i believe in God. He will always help me to fulfill the vision that He had given me. He makes possible those things I think is impossible."

God bless!!!