journey......for joyce

"as for man, his days are like grass...for the wind passes over it, and it is gone."

Psalm 103:15-16

i was reading a book titled 23 minutes in hell when suddenly the phone rang. linda, the new midnight supervisor answered the phone. she mentioned something about an employee's sister was on the phone and said that her sister got killed last night. after that she let the unit manager talked to somebody on the phone.

everybody was shocked by the news that one of our co-worker died. alot of us couldn't believed it. i was even speechless for a few moment. though i don't know her that much but i saw her once in a while and was able to talked to her and share some jokes. she was so nice and always have this positive outlook in life. always smiling and always happy.

i send txt messages to some of my friends which is also my co-workers. they too can't believed that she died. though non of us really know what happened or if it is really true, we were saddened. i looked at the news over the internet but i couldn't find any news about her. till now while writing this, i'm still watching the news.

"for what is your life?it is even a vapor that appears for a little time and then vanishes away."

James 4:14

a friend told me that you really can't tell when your time will be up. really true! it's like a journey. our journey though we don't really know when will we reach our final destination. might be 50 yrs from now, or the next 5 yrs, or probably tomorrow. nobody knows. but my main question there is how we live our life during our journey. have we been happy enough or satisfied with our life. most of us can tell that we still got a lot of things to do and we are not ready to die yet. most of us are scared. who doesn't?

if you just think deeply, one of the big reason why we are afraid to die is the fear. we don't know what will happen to us in our afterlife. most of us believed that there is heaven and hell but we can't tell for sure if where will be our final destination. sometimes we maybe too confident that we can tell that we are going to heaven, but the question is, are you really? how sure are you that you will go there? what makes you say that you are going to heaven?

it's hard to determine if what are the basis inorder for us to go to heaven. sometimes we are not even sure that there is heaven, or hell. but if there is heaven, are you sure that that's where you are going? what if your belief is not good enough? what if the values and beliefs that was passed on to us by our ancestors, or mother and father, is not what really is inorder for us to go to heaven? when you die, there is no going back, and you got no choice but to go to heaven or worse if you go to hell. "ang pagsisisi ay nasa huli!" as what they said. but no matter how you repent or sorry for your sins, if you are in hell, that would be useless, as you have already been judge. where we are going to is determined by what we did here on earth.

"every tree which does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into fire." Luke 3:9

most of us is aware of what the bible is saying about salvation. God send us priest, pastors, saints, etc inorder to reach us so we will be save. but we tend to ignore it. instead we focuse more on ourselves, on how to make a lot of money and other earthly things. we are so selfish most of the time. we spend a lot of time looking at ourself in a mirror and trying to make ways to make ourself more beautiful. we spend so much time taking picture of ourselve in every different angle and in every places that we went to but didn't spent a minute trying to know who really God is. we read a lot of magazines and books but our bible has been in the same corner where you put it the last time you clean your room. sometimes we work and work hoping to get more money in paycheck but spend no time meditating about God.

what we are doing is our choice. God give us freewill to do as what we desire. if you die and you go to hell, you cannot blame God for it. it is your choice. you choosed to ignore Him. Jesus tells you to believed in Him but sometimes we unconsciously ignore Him. instead we do what we pleases. we think about ourselves so much. if your day will come, what do you expect God will do to you.

i know most of us believe in God but we tend to wait for tomorrow or next week to follow the path that He wants on us. what if that tomorrow that we been waiting will never come? what you die today?where you think you are going? as i said it's our choice. and we better decide now before its already late. our soul is what we really us. it's the reallity. our body will cease someday but our soul will live forever. so its your choice what to choose. only you can save yourself.

to joyce: may you rest in peace.