in his time

jokes:the insurance salesman, trying to start up a conversation with another fella said,

"Who is that ugly lady over there?"

the second man said, "why that's my wife!"

trying to get out of an embarrassing situation, the salesman said,

"No, not her, the other one!"

the second man said, "That's my daughter!"

living alone is not easy at all. if somebody would say, "it's alright", i would not say that he or she had been telling the truth. it's really difficult if you don't have nobody to talked to or share your feelings if you're at home on your day off. kinda sad and lonely and i would say depressing. eating your dinner alone, watching tv by yourself and other, are things that really hard to imagine when you are on your past 30's. wouldn't it be nice if there's somebody gives you a hug and a kiss every time you arrived from work, or a three yr old son or daughter asked you if you brought any candy.

my friends kept on asking me almost everyday if when will i try to find somebody, or why didn't i try going out with her, or if i already called their best friend. until now alot of those had been so mysterious to me. when... is one thing i can't answer. though i tried on my own alot of times but things always don't work out. god has a plan for me even before i was created. he will lead me the way. if he wants to give it now, he will. if i kept on pushing myself, i will just get frustrated. its the devils way of saying that god is not going to give you everything you want.its a lie. I'm not going to fall into that trap. Isaiah says in 58:11"the lord will guide you continually, and satisfy you with all good things...and you will be like a well-watered garden, like an ever-flowing spring"

god is so good. he answers my prayer. he gives me what i want little by little and i know he got more in store in heaven for me. better than i expected. the bible says in john 15:7"if you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given to you". i do believe that. i do asked him sometimes for a partner in life and i know he will give it to me...in his time and not on my time. today might not be the right time...only him knows when will be that time. every time i closed my eyes before i sleep, i pray that when i wake up, good things will come to pass. god is constructing my dreams and everyday, i live my life expecting that god will fulfill that dreams.