ocean floor

leaving 99

the battle belongs to the Lord

I wasn't feeling good this past week. It seems alot of negative thoughts coming to my mind. I know the devil is trying to steal my joy. He uses people that surround me to make me upset. It's like every morning at the end of the shift, this morning staff are just getting on my nerve. They come with a lazy attitude and seems doesn't want to do anything. They would expect me to do everything for them. They have this nasty attitude who would think of nothing else but themselves. The other would come in the morning and would say"i want this, i want that, i want 7 people in my unit." I mean it's just common sense that the other unit can barely get 4 and she would demand 7.

Almost everyday somethings coming up. Different kind upsetting things and I'd been trying not to lose my joy. I'm used to an impulsive person with things like this. I don't want somebody taking to me in such a manner that i don't like. If you don't respect me, I'm not going to respect you. You yelled at me, I'll make that everybody will hear that I'm yelling at you too. I remember, one of the nurse in the morning shift pulled me to the med room because me and this cena was yelling at each other. She told me to be a "bigger man". I calm down but i still wrote the cena for insubordination.

Yesterday was one of the days. The enemy send another person to destroy my peace. This time it was the Physician Assistant of one of our Doctor. She got big head and she think she's mighty. She is rude and as if she's making a fool out of me. I want to answer her back in a nasty way. I want to tell her how stupid she was from telling about a certain protocol that i know where she got it from. I want to yell and tell her not to the blame on me and stop making some kind of protocol out of nowhere just to get away with it.

But I bow down, took a deep breath and gave her the answer with respect. I didn't gave in to the flesh. I didn't gave in to the devil that was trying to tell me to do it. I prayed and ask the Lord to give me strenght. Not to give in to the temptation. I don't Him that the battle is His. I stayed in faith. When i went home i prayed for them. I asked the Lord to give them peace and help them with there problem.

Before I enter that facility the next night, I prayed to God to guide me and send the devil away that's trying to destroy our peace. When i went in, i learned that the Physician assistant had some kind of trouble with one of the patient. I waited till morning and ended the Lord answered my prayer. Twas a peaceful night and a peaceful morning and i thank God for that. He fights the battle for me.